archives... December 2006

• 12/30/06 (5:13 PM): The house is almost in order. I've picked up and found places for just about everything... whew. Now I just have to do a little minor cooking. I also downloaded some new tunes and fixed my iTunes, so now I just need to build a massive play list for my New Years Eve Party with my friends. You are welcome to stop by, just call me. My Lyd comes home tonight, late. I'm very excited for tomorrow! It's the only thing I have looked forward to in a long time. I also started my personal web concept. I'm not going to show it to you until it's done though. Then I'll take opinions. The main thing is that I get it done so that I can begin to look for work. The goal is to get the resumes out there before I go on vacation to Phoenix. Oh, as promised, another painting. This was the third still life painting where we got to use color. This one was my favorite painting of the semester. My mother's too! I gave it to her for Christmas because she loved it so much.

  

• 12/27/06 (7:23 PM): So much to do. I've been unpacking and I discovered two gifts that had slipped my mind that I got all excited about. First, my new knives! All my knives are in storage and my parents bought us each new knives. One is a fish filet knife and other is a Santoku which is great for chopping. I'm so excited to give them a try. If I felt like cooking that would be ideal, but I don't. I also found my new Leatherman! Yea I have a Leatherman! I can't wait to go camping, too bad I have to wait 5 months (no, I'm not going winter camping). So I've been picking and sorting and being a busy little beaver.

  I just got some other news that I just don't know how to feel about. My biological grandfather died (my mother's father). Now, this is a man that I have never seen or talked to, so it's hard to place what it is I feel. It's interesting to think that part of my DNA make up just passed on. He is 1/6 of my make-up, weird.

  So, another taste of art for you. Here is the second painting project. This was my least favorite piece. I really don't like it much, probably why I only got a B on it. We had to paint the still life again, but different perspective. We were allowed to use black and white and two contrasting colors (I choose blue and orange). I never really felt this one, but some liked it.

  

• 12/26/06 (7:17 PM): So, I made it through Christmas. On Christmas Eve I even got a little festive for church. I went to family mass so that I could sing with the choir again. Man how I miss singing.

  

  Then we prepared for Christmas at my house. Wrapping and all. Then I took a Christmas Eve drive with Mary, Sara and Erick down River Rd. Oh how I love to see my friends when I'm sad. They pick me back up and dust me off for a while. Then Christmas morning was standard. My mother went way over the top, again. I got a lot of jewelry, a power drill (thanks dad, but you still have to come fix the ice machine you installed incorrectly), decorations, ornaments, groceries and much much more. Then we went to my Gram DiSanto's for the Christmas traditions. It was great watching my little cousins. Kelsey got a pink too-too from Erin and she just did not take it off until she woke up this morning. It was so cute. Christmas night my friend Chris (college roommate) stopped by on his way through. He always stops on his trips back home to say hi. Other visits from friends passing by this holiday season were Jed (my camping buddy) and Steve (my college "guy on the couch"). Let me tell you, seeing friends make an effort to come see me in little 'ol Auburn is just the best darn Christmas gift I could get.

  Today, the day after, we have our standard tradition of shopping with the DiSanto women. I really wasn't feeling great today. To make matters worse, my contact folded over in my eye. I pulled it out and tried to put it back in and it tore. So I had to spend half the day with one contact in and one out. My stomach was not happy after that. Then I went home, packed up the car and headed home.

  In past news, went to Bridgette's wedding last weekend. I went with Val as my date. Here are a photos of the bride and of Val and I. It was fun to hang out and dance with some of my old pals.

  

  

• 12/24/06 (2:02 PM): Well folks, it's Christmas Eve. I'm still not in the spirit of the holiday. Personally I'd really love to curl up in a ball and not leave the couch. That, sounds divine. I just don't have any will to want to do anything these days. This is bad because I need to get my resume, website and portfolio built. Should be fun. I'm really looking forward to the new year. Hopefully my heart will have healed slightly, I'm having a party at my house (BYOB & P, snacks will be accepted too), so that should really make me feel better. All my favorite people in one location.

  I finished my painting class on Thursday. I got an A-. Not too bad for a girl who has never picked up a paint brush or really taken any art classes before. I'm very proud of myself for decided to take the leap and do something different. It was challenging finding time to do homework, finding time to spend with those I care about and working. I'm going to miss my hour drive to the big city. Oh how I miss Rochester. I love the country, but I love Rochester too. Maybe I'll get my next job up there until I save some cash to move to Oregon/Washington/Colorado or wherever my next adventure is supposed to take me. Here is the black and white painting you saw earlier. My teacher made us use a coloring technique on it. I liked it better in black and white, but this isn't bad either. I took photos of all my paintings, so it'll give me a reason to keep posting!

  

• 12/18/06 (3:47 PM): I especially love my horoscope for this week, lets just hope some of it comes true! So I don't live by my horoscope, but I like to read them for a good laugh, sometimes they are weirdly true.

  A New Chapter - Monday might signal a new chapter in your relationship with your romantic or business partner, Beth. The Sun conjunct Pluto may bring hidden issues out into the open, and you and your partner may have a few decisions to make, some of which could have far-reaching consequences for both of you. On Wednesday, the New Moon in your sector of partnership could signal the start of a new beginning for you both, either as a couple or as solo agents. On Thursday, the Sun enters Capricorn, and the beginning of the Winter Solstice should provide you with a more stable emotional attitude toward the way you express your sexuality and in how you use your financial resources. You may devote considerable time to acquiring both more money and a new lover in the weeks ahead (hells yeah I need both). On Friday, your need to travel and experience a change of scenery may be paramount and you could take off for a quick trip. On Saturday, your love interest may be interested in developing his or her spirituality and share the reasons why with you. On Sunday, you could find yourself imagining ways to change your career path to one that is more suitable to your current interests.

• 12/12/06 (8:47 PM): "Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, martini in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO what a ride!"

• 12/11/06 (5:05 PM): I need your help! We had portraits taken at work on Sunday, which do you like? These were my 6 favorites. See them all. E-mail me your opinion.

• 12/11/06 (5:02 PM): This was my first painting, revised from the previous post. I have to add color to it, so it will no longer be as it is... sad, i like it in black and white.

  

• 12/09/06 (9:00 AM): I know it's been forever since I've updated. A lot has happened, but you probably won't get it all. First, it's been forever since I've updated because my hard drive died. I lost two years of my photos. That's the main reason I have not been around. I've been painting for my class, which is a lot of fun. Just a few more weeks though.

  I hate when you find out that someone you knew so well turns out to be someone you didn't know at all. It's amazing to me every time some deceives me and I wonder how I let it happen. When did I become so naive? How can I let someone look at me and tell me how great I am and believe that they care? I've I feel so lost and empty, it's hard to cry or yell, I just feel so... I don't even know how to describe it. When is it my turn to be happy? I've been searching for it for 4 years now. Am I truly unhappy, well I suppose no. I do have great friends and family in my life. But right now I feel like my world is caving in and I can't breathe. Maybe hockey will make me feel better. I have a practice today. I also need to eat something... anything. I'm just not hungry. I'm just so disgusted and my stomach hurts. I hate myself right now.

  So that's where I'm at. Don't get concerned, I'm not going to do anything stupid. I never let a person tear me apart completely and I'm not going to start now. I just need time to process and learn to accept that things are going to drastically change for me. Work, friends, life... all changing. Help me find the strength to do it.

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